Sunday, March 23, 2014

Bummer of a Sunday

Hello friends. I'm here to write my monthly post which hopefully will become more regular with Spring coming on. As anyone knows who's followed this blog for any amount of time, me and Spring typically get along just fine when nature starts to show it's beautiful face and things start to bloom and I can start growing things. Some of what I did today to cheer myself up.

I had to give Max back to the shelter I adopted him from today. It's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I've been telling myself for the last three weeks that I just had a really bad cold, but it had been getting progressively worse and it got to the point where I almost couldn't breathe, my chest had gotten so congested. When Charli, the stray, would come around before, she'd be in the house for 8 hours max, then leave, so I thought my allergies had adjusted. But they hadn't. I kept thinking I'd adjust to Max, but my chest was closing up on me completely and I was taking way too much medication :( It broke my heart for me and for him because we had bonded pretty quickly. When I brought him back today, the lady at the shelter who was amazingly sweet gave me a hug right away and told me "I can see this is hard for you." I felt like an idiot because I started crying right there at petsmart where they adopt. But I just couldn't help myself. I hope he finds a good home and a permanent one this time.

On top of that, I had to go buy a suit today in preparation for a possible funeral soon. My grandma who I'm extremely close to isn't doing well. She's actually made it longer than we expected already. But she's getting hospice care at home now. Knowing my grandma though, she could make it another year. Though it's not likely with what's been going on.

On the GOOD news front though, I planted things today!! I bought a blueberry bush! And planted it in a gorgeous turquoise planter that I found at a really good price. I also planted a couple of tomatoes, a bell pepper and a jalapeno. And I planted my herbs for the year a couple of weeks ago along with some flowers. I still want a house so damn bad just so that I can plant more and plant it in the ground where it can all have a permanent home. Container gardening is fun, but just not the same.

I'm discovering a love for essential oils too! My friend Sharon introduced me to Young Living and the many many uses for essential oils that I wouldn't have even dreamed of and just in a couple of days I've seen huge changes from them. They've helped my allergies, helped me sleep better, cleared out my chest, given me energy, they actually taste fantastic used the right way, you can clean with them, and so much more. I already have my mom wanting to get some too :p Anything that takes me away from more medicine and harsh cleaners is a plus in my book.

On the reading front, this month has completely blown. I have read one other book since my last review, Diane Rehm's Finding My Voice, and it really deserves it's own review. It's the first "wow" book that I've read this year. I love Diane so so so much. I listen to her show on NPR every day and she's benefited my life in so many ways and her memoir was so inspiring and so touching. The raw honesty took me by surprise. I wasn't expecting it, though at the same time, I shouldn't have expected anything less from her. I would've never known how much she's struggled with depression and anxiety without reading this book nor the abuse that she's overcome. She's certainly a fighter and reading her book really made me think that I should be taking each day as a blessing.

Right now, I'm reading Sedaris' Naked, but believe it or not, I've been reading it really slowly because I laugh too much reading it which makes me cough which hurts really bad. Hopefully that gets better now. I think I'm also going to start Melody Moezzi's Haldol and Hyacinths tonight, a book that I first heard about on the Diane Rehm show. And then next month will be all about Once Upon a Time!

How's everyone else doing? Sorry again that I've been such a stranger. Hopefully soon I'll be able to stop saying that at the end of every post and be back to my normal self!

19 comments:

Kristen M. said...

Oh, sweetie, what a rough time you're having. I wish there was something I could do to help. Just know that I'm always up late if you need to talk (and with the time difference, that's really late for you!). Planting things should help you find a bit of peace. I hope your allergies do clear up really soon too. ::hugs::

Cath said...

Sorry to hear about your cat, Chris. I can sympathise as I have the same allergy, cats *and* dogs as a matter of fact. I would love a cat, absolutely love it, but I know I wouldn't last more than a week.

We're planting stuff too! :-)

Kelly Fastige said...

Awww, that must have been so difficult foe you :( So sorry your going through such a rough time Chris. Can't plant outside yet here, but I have big planting plans this year ;)

Debi said...

*LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS MORE HUGS* Love you, sweetie.

Beth F said...

Oh I feel so bad about Max. I can only imagine how difficult it was for you. On the other hand, I'm jealous that you're planting! We will likely have at least one more snowfall before I can start thinking of gardening.

Daphne said...

Oh no... I've had to give animals back for various reasons and it's heartbreaking and awful. One way you can think about it is that you gave him a respite from the rescue, and taught him some more about good human-cat bonding behavior, so he'll be a perfect kitty for the family that adopts him. Big, big hugs.

Eva said...

I'm so sorry Chris: that really sucks. I had to give back the dog before Thistle who I'd only had for a week and that was hard enough. *hugs*

Vasilly said...

Awww hun. :-( I hope you feel 100% soon. It sucks that you had to give your dog back. You're going through so much right now. I'm sending hugs your way.

Marg said...

How heartbreaking to have to give your dog back.

You are having a rough time now but hopefully there will be lots of good things coming your way soon.

Megan said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Max. That's the worst. :(

Hope things start looking up soon!

Susan said...

I am so sorry that you had to give your cat back, that is heartbreaking for you - but it had to be done, you are so sick with him around. Hugs from here, Chris!

I am happy to hear someone is planting...we have snow and cold continuing here. No signs of spring. All winter, and we are so depressed that that is all anyone is talking about. It's been our coldest winter in 20 years, and normally we get above 0 celsius, but we are so cold the maple syrup still isn't running! Grr! It makes me irritable and cranky and I get to hate going outside at all....so enjoy the sun, and planting, and think of us up north! The only thing it's been good for is reading. That's going well for me this year so far! lol

I hope things start going better for you soon. I'm sorry about your grandmother and hope you have some more time with her.

DesLily said...

so sorry about Max :o(
and very sorry about your grandma... wish we could hug each other but then I might never let go.. :o)

Kailana said...

I am so sorry about Max. :( Casey doesn't really bother me, but Milo, my mother's cat, was horrible on me. I am wondering if it is I am used to Casey or if some cats have different dander?

I am also sorry to hear about your grandmother. I hope things get better for you soon!

Carole McDonnell said...

I'm so sorry. We get so attached.

Bookfool said...

(((((HUGS))))) Also, feel free to come up to my house to plant things. I've got plenty of space - just haven't found the time to plant. It may be fall before we get going. We've had plenty of people looking at the old house but no bites so we're thinking we may need to do a bit more work, drop the price, blah, blah. So, so tired of dealing with two homes. Wish you could take one of them off my hands!!! You'd like the Vburg yard. :)

Lu @ Regular Rumination said...

Oh, no! So many hugs, Chris. I'm sorry things have been so difficult lately. I know you must feel miserable about Max and I'm so so sorry to hear about your grandma. Take care of yourself this week, Chris. Do good things and things that you know will be relaxing and comforting. I hope things are better and brighter soon. *hugs*

Trish said...

(((((Hugs))))) I am SO SO SO sorry to hear about Max and I don't blame you one bit for breaking down at Petsmart. What a hard decision to make but I'm sure you made the right one.

I'm also sorry to hear about your grandma. I haven't been keeping up with posts and actually didn't realize how old this one was until I clicked on the comments, so hopefully she's still doing well...but most importantly is comfortable.

Spring is here! Can't wait to see more about your garden. I need to clean out my bed from last year and possibly move it but I can't wait to plant some tomatoes again.

Hugs again. xo

Jeane said...

I am jealous of your blueberry bush. Always wanted one. And so sorry it didn't work out with Max. maybe you can find a cornish rex cat, or a sphinx? I've heard that allergies dont act up around cats with no fur, but not certain if that's true. Wish you the best possible with everything else.

Monica said...

I just found your blog, and it's a good one! Stay strong. All the rough patches you're going through right now will go away in time. Let all the good wash over all the bad. Spring and planting will do a lot of good. Maybe you can look at any mushroom or berry picking in your area when the weather gets a lot warmer? It does a person a whole lot of good, a walk in the woods and getting a ton of fresh air :)