Bummer of a Sunday

Hello friends. I'm here to write my monthly post which hopefully will become more regular with Spring coming on. As anyone knows who's followed this blog for any amount of time, me and Spring typically get along just fine when nature starts to show it's beautiful face and things start to bloom and I can start growing things. Some of what I did today to cheer myself up.

I had to give Max back to the shelter I adopted him from today. It's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I've been telling myself for the last three weeks that I just had a really bad cold, but it had been getting progressively worse and it got to the point where I almost couldn't breathe, my chest had gotten so congested. When Charli, the stray, would come around before, she'd be in the house for 8 hours max, then leave, so I thought my allergies had adjusted. But they hadn't. I kept thinking I'd adjust to Max, but my chest was closing up on me completely and I was taking way too much medication :( It broke my heart for me and for him because we had bonded pretty quickly. When I brought him back today, the lady at the shelter who was amazingly sweet gave me a hug right away and told me "I can see this is hard for you." I felt like an idiot because I started crying right there at petsmart where they adopt. But I just couldn't help myself. I hope he finds a good home and a permanent one this time.

On top of that, I had to go buy a suit today in preparation for a possible funeral soon. My grandma who I'm extremely close to isn't doing well. She's actually made it longer than we expected already. But she's getting hospice care at home now. Knowing my grandma though, she could make it another year. Though it's not likely with what's been going on.

On the GOOD news front though, I planted things today!! I bought a blueberry bush! And planted it in a gorgeous turquoise planter that I found at a really good price. I also planted a couple of tomatoes, a bell pepper and a jalapeno. And I planted my herbs for the year a couple of weeks ago along with some flowers. I still want a house so damn bad just so that I can plant more and plant it in the ground where it can all have a permanent home. Container gardening is fun, but just not the same.

I'm discovering a love for essential oils too! My friend Sharon introduced me to Young Living and the many many uses for essential oils that I wouldn't have even dreamed of and just in a couple of days I've seen huge changes from them. They've helped my allergies, helped me sleep better, cleared out my chest, given me energy, they actually taste fantastic used the right way, you can clean with them, and so much more. I already have my mom wanting to get some too :p Anything that takes me away from more medicine and harsh cleaners is a plus in my book.

On the reading front, this month has completely blown. I have read one other book since my last review, Diane Rehm's Finding My Voice, and it really deserves it's own review. It's the first "wow" book that I've read this year. I love Diane so so so much. I listen to her show on NPR every day and she's benefited my life in so many ways and her memoir was so inspiring and so touching. The raw honesty took me by surprise. I wasn't expecting it, though at the same time, I shouldn't have expected anything less from her. I would've never known how much she's struggled with depression and anxiety without reading this book nor the abuse that she's overcome. She's certainly a fighter and reading her book really made me think that I should be taking each day as a blessing.

Right now, I'm reading Sedaris' Naked, but believe it or not, I've been reading it really slowly because I laugh too much reading it which makes me cough which hurts really bad. Hopefully that gets better now. I think I'm also going to start Melody Moezzi's Haldol and Hyacinths tonight, a book that I first heard about on the Diane Rehm show. And then next month will be all about Once Upon a Time!

How's everyone else doing? Sorry again that I've been such a stranger. Hopefully soon I'll be able to stop saying that at the end of every post and be back to my normal self!