Saturday, May 19, 2012

A New Chapter

 
Well, I did it. I moved into my very first apartment today, with Matt to join me in just a little over a week. I'm exhausted, I'm tired, I'm achy, I'm an emotional mess, but I couldn't be happier at the same time. Guys, I'm so in love with my little place. I really did find the perfect place to start my new life with Matt. It feels like me, it feels like us.

I knew from the time I found this apartment I would like it, but you don't really get a feel for a place until you move in, and I really lucked out finding this place. First of all, it's gorgeous. It's considered a "luxury apartment" but I think the price is really reasonable for what it is. It'll mean a commute to work, but that's fine because I'm in an area that I love. I go out onto my patio and hear quiet..solitude. No busy freeways, just birds chirping. And I see woods around me. The grounds are gorgeously landscaped. I have a gorgeous pool, a 24 hour gym that I have access to, a pond, tennis courts, a trail to walk around, so much more. 

The apartment itself is just so so..perfect. I can't think of another word. I've only been here for 17 hours and it feels so like home already. I have these gorgeous cement floors, 1200 square feet of space for me and Matt to make our own, a nice little kitchen, a fireplace and a beautiful little patio area that I can slowly make my own with some new plants :)

In fact, I think I may spend tomorrow getting some new plants for the patio before I have to go back to work on Monday. It was a very bittersweet day too. Of course, my mom and my sister and my brother came to help me move. I didn't realize exactly how hard it was going to be to say goodbye. I knew it wouldn't be easy but when it was time to actually say goodbye...to admit that this was now my home, not my mom's house..that was so hard on both of us. I'm getting teary eyed again just typing this. 

She gave me a bell that I've always loved when I left home today. It's a little silver bell that she was given when her and my dad got married and I've loved it since I was a kid. I gave her a journal for Mother's day that I filled out completely and mentioned in there how I had always loved it. When I was leaving tonight, she gave me the bell and told me she wanted me to have it. That just about killed me. Wasn't the easiest drive to my new "home". But I made it. 

I'm in a good place now. I think this will actually bring me and my mom closer. I know it will bring me and Matt closer...both physically and let us take the next step in our relationship. Things are coming together and I just couldn't be happier right now. I wanted to thank all of you for your continued support too. I've been a bit of a stranger this year. It hasn't been the easiest. Yet you've all stuck around and I can't tell you all how much that means to me. From the bottom of my heart, I mean that. 

I know not everyone goes on tumblr, but I wanted to let everyone know that I posted pics of the new place over there for those who were interested! I had to split them up into two separate posts. Here's part 1 and here's part 2! Hopefully I'll be around more now that things are settling into place. Hugs to you all!!

12 comments:

brideofthebookgod said...

Congratulations. It's a huge adventure that you've embarked on and I wish you all the very best for the future!

Cath said...

Aww Chris, moving out to your own place is always bitter-sweet. It's a tribute to what a good son you are that you felt it so badly. Your place sounds wonderful though, and I know you and Matt will be so happy there together. Wishing you both the best of luck and lots of happiness.

DesLily said...

well crap. you made me cry. thanks a heap. sheesh.

I am soooo happy for you I can't express it in words. I wish for you and Matt the love my brother and David had for 43 years! Only I hope you are even happier, if possible lol.

I feel like the bell is just more proof how much your mom loves you. moms have a way of letting you know... you can always come home. wow. may all your dreams come true baby boy....

Andi said...

I'm so so so happy for you Chris. I know you'll be very happy in your new place, and you and Matt have great things in your future.

Hugs!

Chrisbookarama said...

Congrats on the new place! I hope you'll be very happy there.

Jeane said...

I just never know how to comment on tumblr. Looks like a wonderful, peaceful place to live. So nice to have your own space to make just how you like it. I wish you all the best settling in!

Debi said...

So much smiling going on for you. :D :D :D x a bazillion

animewookie said...

Yay!! Congrats Chris! So sad an exciting at the same time, but when you love someone, their happiness is what makes you happy, so i'm sure your mom is loving seeing you so content right now :D I wish the two of you many years of love, health and happiness <3

Amanda said...

I'm not on tumblr anymore, but I just looked at all the pics and it looks so beautiful! That's a really big apartment! I hope you'll both be very happy there.

Vasilly said...

Wow, Chris. What a great turning point you're going through right now. You've found Mr. Right and the perfect house for the two of you. Congratulations. :-)

Daphne said...

Yay!! I am so excited for you! I am going to email you as well.

Bookfool said...

Just peeked at your tumblr pics and it's gorgeous! I'm so thrilled for you, Chris!!!