A New Chapter

 

Well, I did it. I moved into my very first apartment today, with Matt to join me in just a little over a week. I'm exhausted, I'm tired, I'm achy, I'm an emotional mess, but I couldn't be happier at the same time. Guys, I'm so in love with my little place. I really did find the perfect place to start my new life with Matt. It feels like me, it feels like us.

I knew from the time I found this apartment I would like it, but you don't really get a feel for a place until you move in, and I really lucked out finding this place. First of all, it's gorgeous. It's considered a "luxury apartment" but I think the price is really reasonable for what it is. It'll mean a commute to work, but that's fine because I'm in an area that I love. I go out onto my patio and hear quiet..solitude. No busy freeways, just birds chirping. And I see woods around me. The grounds are gorgeously landscaped. I have a gorgeous pool, a 24 hour gym that I have access to, a pond, tennis courts, a trail to walk around, so much more. 

The apartment itself is just so so..perfect. I can't think of another word. I've only been here for 17 hours and it feels so like home already. I have these gorgeous cement floors, 1200 square feet of space for me and Matt to make our own, a nice little kitchen, a fireplace and a beautiful little patio area that I can slowly make my own with some new plants :)

In fact, I think I may spend tomorrow getting some new plants for the patio before I have to go back to work on Monday. It was a very bittersweet day too. Of course, my mom and my sister and my brother came to help me move. I didn't realize exactly how hard it was going to be to say goodbye. I knew it wouldn't be easy but when it was time to actually say goodbye...to admit that this was now my home, not my mom's house..that was so hard on both of us. I'm getting teary eyed again just typing this. 

She gave me a bell that I've always loved when I left home today. It's a little silver bell that she was given when her and my dad got married and I've loved it since I was a kid. I gave her a journal for Mother's day that I filled out completely and mentioned in there how I had always loved it. When I was leaving tonight, she gave me the bell and told me she wanted me to have it. That just about killed me. Wasn't the easiest drive to my new "home". But I made it. 

I'm in a good place now. I think this will actually bring me and my mom closer. I know it will bring me and Matt closer...both physically and let us take the next step in our relationship. Things are coming together and I just couldn't be happier right now. I wanted to thank all of you for your continued support too. I've been a bit of a stranger this year. It hasn't been the easiest. Yet you've all stuck around and I can't tell you all how much that means to me. From the bottom of my heart, I mean that. 

I know not everyone goes on tumblr, but I wanted to let everyone know that I posted pics of the new place over there for those who were interested! I had to split them up into two separate posts. Here's part 1 and here's part 2! Hopefully I'll be around more now that things are settling into place. Hugs to you all!!